what reasons could I give
if you asked me to stay
would I bow my head in sadness
or rejoice in the day

the road ahead is blank
no pictures, words or hurts
the time ahead is mysterious
my eyes I can't avert.

stay wrapped up in my cocoon
no metamorphis I would need
or struggle with the bindings
and fly wherever you lead..

I think my answer is simple
so giddy it makes me reel
just follow softly alongside
and go with what I feel.

talking, laughing finding
little things to make me smile
hmmmmm says my heart to my head
haven't felt like this in awhile

the way your hand caresses me
as your lips find mine
the hands on all the clocks
no longer keeping time

my vision tunnels down
until the only thing I see
are your eyes blazing passion
as you stop to look at me

slowly, slowly my mind screams
yet my body leans in
slowly , slowly I
let the dance begin.

Spring lingers on my lips
after the first kiss, complete
my skin awakens from winters  sleep
carressed where your eyes meet

hope blossoms
where fear once reigned
alone no more
shouts my soul so bruised

tendrils of happiness spring
from the stalk of that newly planted seed
sowed oh so carefully
making sure of my every need

slowly the days pass into weeks
and  strength returns to my heart
open so fully where you dared
to tear it apart.

standing with my back
leaning on the wall
tears tremble
a splash as they fall

waking from a dream
i felt you oh so near
the words you were
whispering
linger in my ear

your love still follows
my heart aches as i breathe
meet me darling,
when its my time to leave

You wake to his laughter
still ringing in the air
you forget for a moment
your brother isnt there

the childhood memories
they swarm and overflow
like the crying eyes I carry
now every where I go.

I wonder every day
what happened
how and why
even though it wont change things
it might help me not to cry.

I lost my brother, Don,
for reasons I know not why
I hope to see him one day
when I lay down to die.

The cold wind,
slipping out the window as spring
shakes the trees and rains cherry blossoms in the yard.

the fog rolls in,
warm now, as the earth wakes up and sprouts new life
dirt dark as chocolate teeming with worms.

the suns rays warm up
the steps by the door, goosebumps raise
on my arms as the cold wind slips out!

Maude

sitting by your bedside today
the light was fading in your eyes
the morphine stealing your laughter
as we said our last goodbyes

you looked so very scared
didnt want to see me go
I knew you needed rest, though,
for your final journey home

How is it that you kept thanking me
for a friendship we both had
all the years  we spent chit chatting
about the happy and the sad


I pray your journey ends tonight
with my love firmly in your heart
feel my hand in yours, Maude
when from this earth you do depart.


You whispered, "Please don't forget me"
Oh lord, hear my pleas
make sure she remebers nothing
but love when she is with thee!!

(03/03/2010 after visiting Maude Kirk in Hospital)